I never knew what giving time to myself could do to me. Its all I needed. It feels carefree. I am not straining my wings. For I have done it far too long already. You can’t hold me back. I will rise. Cause I am not scared of escaping. Yes, I will get hurt but am I not there to mend myself? Have I not been here for so long that I don’t remember I belong here? I am prepared for long flights, for flying low sometimes, falling and starting again. I am ready to start from one person alone. Me. Myself.
Yes, I have a healthy appetite. No, I am not thin stick. No, that is not a bad thing. Yes, I am pretty. I know it, The world doesn’t need to. Yes, I am proud of being me.
Yes, I have made mistakes. Haven’t you? Yes, I have learned from my mistakes. You, haven’t. I am not repeating my mistakes. Then why are you?
Yes, I have scars. Yes, they add up to my beauty. They make me bold. They remind me to be stronger. Yes, you are perfect. No, you don’t exist.
Yes, I am an open book. Yes, I come from a good family. Yes, I am popular. Yes, you can call me names. Yes, you can judge me. No, you don’t have the right to say that you know me.
Yes, I was stupid before. No, I am not stupid anymore. Yes, you were stupid before. Yes, you still are stupid now.
Why do you bring me down? One word answer. Jealousy. Why do I rise up? One word answer. Maturity.
I am not a sadist. I don’t say, ‘Me pretending to be happy when I am not.’ I say, ‘Me eliminating things which make me unhappy. This way I don’t pretend.’
No, I am not self centered. Yes, I have found self respect.
Yes, I am an ordinary girl. Yes, people have far greater problems than mine. Yes, I know that now.
I lost myself amidst the craziness of life. But, I have found myself now. A new person. A better person.